Hustle Bootch

Today was an anxious day.  When I have days like this I usually need a couple of hours to mope, which usually includes reading gossip blogs, some T.V, and perhaps spending an hour staring at the ceiling.  You know, crazy girl stuff.

I haven't had one of these days in a long time. Since February my days have been on over drive and I've been walking in a daze. I rarely have control how the days move anymore, and I've been looking for an opportunity to make sense of it all. I've seriously been having so much fun this whole time, but today was a rude stop to the joy.

I can feel the universe's test. It wants to see if I will panic.  That's when I decided to read emails that I wrote about five years ago to my boyfriend who I was living with at the time. As I started to read down the letters, I saw that I always in a constant state of panic. I worried about us all the time.

I'm still fucking worried all the time, but at least I have a couple of ways to cope with the stress. Nothing is more important than my own integrity.

I digress. Today was a shitty day, but I finally got my mind back into my body. It's been in the clouds for quite some time now.  I don't want to go back to be worried all the time, but a little fire up my ass would do me some good.

positive. reflect. forgive. repeat. 

Budget Bardot

Bardot by boothebootch featuring beauty products

One of the benefits of having long hair is that I can finally get that perfect bed head look that I love so much.

In my perfect fantasy I'm stepping out of my car during high noon as I whip my hair from side to side stopping traffic!

Yeah no... it's not like that in real life :(

But there's an aspect of my personality that tries to summon Brigitte Bardot. It's a fun look to do especially when you instantly need to feel hot, when you've haven't been feeling pretty all day.

Everyone relates to Bardot for her effortless sexuality and beauty.

 It contradicts a new phase in beauty, which is just way to much effort and time. I blame the Kardashians. Although I can't stop watching them >_<

In this particular picture I was super pissed off at my bangs. They were growing out and I spent about an hour trying to figure how I was gonna leave the house without blowing a gasket. So my answer was to clip them back and tease the shit out of the crown of my head. I half hazardly curled the ends, did a smokey eye, and voila I can leave the house!

Things to note that I did for this look: A conventional comb and a shit ton of hairspray will keep your hair bed sexy steady. I did some contouring to my face before I did my eyes. If I had more time I would have set my hair in velcro rollers and then teased. Oh, and add some fake eyelashes to finish the look :)

Below is a great video that I found to help you with the look.  The woman below actually sort of looks like Brigitte Bardot, which is kind of cool.  Of course I follow Projface on youtube. She uses the Wet N Wild comfort zone palette in a lot of her looks, and I often look to her smokey eye tutorial to get tips on how to do a pull it off with an Asian face.

Both women give an awesome tutorial. Enjoy!

Art Analysis: Kiss V Roy Lichenstein

When I was at the Chicago Art Institute during a recent trip, I was in the museum store trying to looking for something "cool" to take home. I saw the Roy Lichenstein Kiss V print in the store, and although I had seen this image a countless times,  I was immediately drawn to it. It impacted me differently since I had last seen it.

Well now I realize that it was positioned the wrong way in the store.... LOL

I've been looking at this print for the past month, wondering why it looks like the man is swallowing the woman's face.

If you take a look at how it's supposed to be (on the computer) and I how I had it on my desk, you get a very different feeling from it.  The woman on the left is clearly a victim of heartbreak, and has a more sexist connotation.

Wow, but if you just change the angle slightly suddenly the gender dynamic is more equal in the painting.  In my perspective, the woman on the left has succumbed to man's choice to leave her. She is devastated, and her man dips her and cradles her as if she were a child.

Now take a look to the right. The decision to end their love appears more mutual. As if these two have done all they could, but it's just not right at this moment. That's exactly what I was thinking before I purchased this print, and it was the image that I needed to see to inspire the two characters for a play that I'm working on.

I don't think I would have bought the print if it were positioned the right way, simply because I identify more with the woman on the right than I do on the left.  Most importantly because I would never let a dude dip me.

When I look at the painting to the right, it evokes more emotion for myself and my characters. It makes me wonder what these two went through that made them decide that there was nothing else that they could do. I feel their charge every time I look at them.

Why had their love run its course? It's obvious they have completely surrendered. No couple surrenders in this way, unless they've done everything that they could to save it.

Don't you think this is a more interesting story than being dumped and dipped like a jackass?

I think I'm going to keep it the way that I had it.  It's funny how a change of angle can change how you feel about a story.