Bill O'Reilly Interviews Rapper Lupe Fiasco - 06/20/11

I'm writing this post hangry, so please forgive the curtness and frustration.

You got two people saying stupid ass shit to win an argument that doesn't make sense. I never thought that Bill O'Reilly would defend Obama. Knock knock hell, are you frozen yet?

Rapper Lupe Fiasco, who I was starting to like by the way, made a very unique comment that "Obama is a Terrorist." Now of course, O'Reilly doesn't explain the context of the comment, but Lupe Fiasco did not come with a valid explanation. Being a leftist of the left, I completely understand Lupe's stance, and our president should absolutely be challenged in the decisions that he makes. I don't support the war on Afghanistan either, but Jesus if you are coming to declare our president to be a "terrorist" you better be packing some heat.

I just don't think that Lupe Fiasco's opinion is viable just because he is arguing against Bill O'Reilly, which is what the response to this video has been. There was no "winner" in this conversation, but the statement that Obama is a terrorist is irresponsible. Jesus, am I actually agreeing with O'Reilly? NO NO NO!

I hate it when people say things that they don't mean. I especially hate it when they are saying dumb ass shit for the sake of shock value. I'm not convinced that Lupe Fiasco thinks that Obama is a terrorist, and it's even more ludicrous that he went to defend himself on the O'Reilly factor. The video is a stupid argument about an immature statement.

GOD I'M SO HANGRY!

Dating Site Bio Gets Weird

I would like to thank my friend Oli for this awesomeness. I was just informed that it's fake, but I don't care. I was rolling around in laughter as I foresaw what will be my dating life in the near future.

I Love This Bootch DOT com!

I know Toni is the star of the family, but TAMAR is clearly the star of Braxton Family Values. OMG.com, LMFAO.com, and Sheisatrip.org.

Please enjoy the short clip of the awesomeness that is Tamar Braxton.

Beyoncé - Best Thing I Never Had (Audio)

I know this is the second Beyonce video I've posted this month. I've gotten into the most off the hook arguments about Beyonce, and I am by no mean the head of the "Lets defend Beyonce committee," but she has the perfect songs for getting over dudes. And to her credit, if I gave her the mic and told her to sing the ABC's, I guarantee that she will KILL it.

I can imagine her saying,"Sure C, I'll sing you the ABC's let me just change my outfit."

BAH! Wouldn't that be the best thing ever? I can sit next to Jay Z while Beyonce sings me the ABC's! I would die.

I pre-ordered her album. It looks like July is going to be a sassy month!

Talking Heads-Cities

I Need To Figure Out Where The Hell I'm Going to Live

My lease ends in September. I've had fantasies of leaving again, only because there are days where LA is a little too much for me. I love its slow pace, but sometimes it's too damn slow and people seem really out of touch with reality. Maybe I'm out of touch and I'm just finding a reason to run again.

My life plan tells me I need to stay put for another year. Aside from minor grumbles, I'm pretty safe emotionally here. That's always a good thing right?

It's Great to Have a Best Friend

Who is also a great photographer. Thanks so much Miss B17 for always being there for me.



By the way, that's a 29 year old jump! Behind my big ass smile was a big girl grunt.

Writing is Rewriting: Like Foreal

So I read my final to my class last night. I spent a lot of time on it, and was pissed that I still had typos and grammar issues. The whole piece in itself did not satisfy the impact I wanted, but a classmate of mine said it was her favorite piece. Maybe it was the content. I explained so much it was very expository, and as a writer you want to transform readers into the experience that you are sharing.

I left my class craving pasta, because recalling the event that changed everything was a burden in itself. Not mention, that I wasn't really satisfied with my work. I'll work harder on it next time

Otherwise, I had a minor mental milestone. I'm not a as crude as I used to be, which I attribute to my effort in learning other writing techniques. I suppose my vernacular was a poor imitation of the bitchy bloggers that I'd become accustomed to following. It's pleasure to see my own voice start to refine itself.

I have an online copywriting class that I still need to take, and hopefully this will help the grammar and sentence syntax issues.

Meh, that was my night.

Happy Father's Day

This year was the first Father's day not spent at home in the Bay. When I called home I could hear the sadness in his voice. We eat together almost every week when he comes to LA for work and he's become a favorite eating buddy. We call it our food club. Although my mom is an honorary member, she clearly hates that she's not included, and would rather not get all the text messages with photos of our delicious meals.

If there is anything that I'm grateful for is that he is good to my mom and bails out his kids! He is patient with all of us and our quirky attitudes. I love that I inherited his goofy personality. It's been an awesome gift, considering that we all need to laugh when life gets difficult.

He's always a happy guy around us. To say I have the best dad is an understatement. Happy Father's day dad.

Give Me Couture: The Donut Hoes Photoshoot

My Friend Saville was in town from the bay, and he's always wanted a picture of the big donut shops that are so notoriously L.A. Does Snoop ring a bell? I was mad laughing when he sent this to me. There were some little girls in the van next to us that were cracking up.

Lady Gaga can kiss my ass and eat a donut in my honor. This is clearly Avant Garde!

Raja - Diamond Crowned Queen [OFFICIAL VIDEO]

For those who watched Rupaul's Drag Race season 3 recap, will recall the hilarious conversation where Manila told Raja that she sounds like James Earl Jones. Well Miss Darth Vader in drag recorded a really catchy dance track, and a music video that will make you blush.

Honestly, this video sounds nothing like Raja. He's on super/hyper-autotune, but I don't really care. He's doing what he does well, which is give good face, with smoldering eyes and a bad girl pout. I love how he challenges gender, sexuality, and fashion, which were qualities that made his win practically a shoe in. In non-drag he's a bit of a hunk, and one of my favorite Asian-American break out stars of this year.

All hail queen Raja! Sex for Dinner!

Go The F*CK To Sleep: Narrated by Samuel L. Jackson

I think I found the solution to my insomnia problems. This is a real book. You can buy it on Amazon.

Bossip.com posted the most awesome audio of Samuel L. Jackson narrating this book, that almost had me peeing in my pants.

If Samuel L. Jackson were to read me a bedtime story I would probably laugh the whole f*cking time, which would piss him off even more, so I would probably never get to sleep.

Please enjoy the awesome audio that is GO THE FUCK TO SLEEP!

Conan O'Brien's 2011 Dartmouth College Commencement Address

"It is our failure to become of perceived ideal that makes us unique. It's not easy, but if you accept your misfortune, and handle it right, your perceived failure can become a catalyst for profound reinvention." -Conan O'Brien

College was the best time of my life. Graduating from college was the worst time of my life. Right now I'm driving on an unbeaten path. We'll see how it goes. Now it's an exciting time of my life.

There is no better cure for self perceived failure, than to hear from someone who endured one of the biggest and most public career disappointments in television. Filled with humor, insight, and sincerity, Coco brought it. I want to hug this silly ginge and punch Jay Leno in the nuts.

You're 29 not 21: The Angry Email Addition

I recently I got an email that made me so angry, I straight went H.A.M (hard as a motherfucker) on the keyboard, and I typed a response that would even hesitate Kanye from interrupting me.

Before I clicked send, I saved draft on a word document and showed it to my roommate (THIS WAS A LIFESAVER).

In all his infinite wisdom and glory, he understood what I was trying to do, but he told me to retype it. I was not presenting my best self. My words were appropriate for a school yard fight, and nothing else.

Once I took fifteen minutes to calm down I got back on the keyboard, represented my point of view, and I walked away carrying on with my day. When I got a response, to my surprise, this person had no idea that I was offended, and even typed a very heartfelt clarification.

I felt like two year old that had just exhausted herself from a tantrum. It was a horrible feeling, I started to cry, because the things I was about to say to this person were cruel and personal. If I had sent my first email I know I would have regretted it.

I have no idea where I learned to fire off in this way. It's gotten me in trouble numerous times, but yesterday, I'm glad that my friend and I were able to redeem ourselves, and represent our intentions clearly. At some point, I will let my friend know how endearing he has truly been, and showing me another reason why I am now 29 and not 21. He's inspired me to share some tips for other other fiery email scribers.

1. Say what you wanna say, but copy and paste it on a word document, and walk away. When you are mad, your best self is not talking to you. Your ego is. Walk away and see the situation for it really is.

2. Be Compassionate. Unless the words, cunt whore bitch, was typed in your subject line, it is most likely that something is not being communicated well, and it's probably not a direct attack on you. When you walk away try to think of EVERY intention of why this person wrote this email to you. If you truly feel like you are being under attack, then let god be with you, and forward me your response!

3. Have a Rational Friend Read a Draft of Your Email. I will fully admit I am the biggest hype man. If you say we are gonna fight, I will run and grab my battle ax, and summon the minotaur. So don't call me to be rational! If you get a rational person to read your email, they will most likely sympathize with your reaction, but they will help you get to where you need to go. If they care about you they will help you minimize your infinite demise, by preventing you from communicating an irrational bitch rant. Remember that emails will be forwarded. If your crazy ass is memorable, then your words will live in infamy in the many inboxes of the people you don't even care about.

4. Draft a Response That Your Grandmother Can Read. If you soften the language it will open a better line of communication. You don't need to apologize or give in. Just take out all of the battle language, cuz it ain't gonna help you. You will lose your job, your friend, and your reputation. I have a reputation for being a jerk, but I don't want to be known as a super jerk. I gotta rep to uphold!

5. Type What It Is That You Really Want. Now Cut That in Half. I'm just gonna be real. Women write too much in emails, and we don't really need to. Unless you casting a spell be concise. The recipient will be better affected if you simply type a rational response, rather than documenting your emotional process. There are some emails I've written where I'm like, damn did I write this in a snuggie with a bottle of wine?

6. If The Recipient is Truly An Asshole. It Doesn't Warrant Response. Sit on that for a second. The best way to get back at an asshole is to ignore all of their bloated nonsense. If it's work related take up with a superior. If it's personal, pretend like you never saw it. Sociopaths love attention for all of the messed up things that they do. Only a sociopath/psycho/deranged bitch/major asshole would take the time to rip you apart emotionally through email. They are overgrown babies that need attention. You are not an overgrown baby. You are fabulous.

Happy Birthday Bootch

My birthday was on Monday.

The day started with me opening my eyes and panicking from my bed. I laid still on my back wondering what it was I wanted to do first. Coffee is usually a great way to get things going, so I started with that.

If I make the motions small, I can handle the big task of dealing with the day.

Before I left for the airport to go back home, I went to my neighborhood mall in Fremont. When I need to sort out my mind I like to be at a mall. The mindless wandering keeps my brain from freaking out from anxiety, so there I was in my hoodie and jeans wandering and wandering.

I left the mall with two more hoodies, and I decided that it a good day for both a frappachinno and a pasta dish, so I devoured both. My cellphone was alive with tons of text messages and phone calls. It helped me put an extra pep in my step, and giggle with glee.

When I got back to LA I was filled with many surprises to say the least. My night was eased in with a dinner that my roommate planned at Crabulous , and I was joined by really great friends. I wish I took pictures! Once I saw all these great faces, I was very much as ease with being 29, and the fear of facing the rest of the year began to lessen.

The crew and I went back to the apartment, where we enjoyed Crown Royal and Gingerale. We talked about various inappropriate topics such as Grindr, blue waffle, and possible interracial/fetish work trysts. Very weird and very gross, I know, but I wouldn't spend my birthday doing anything else. I'm very much that bastos Filipino auntie, so I thrive around crude company.

I went to bed feeling very loved, very clear, and incredibly thankful. I'm blessed with the variations of life, and the lessons it provides. I made a promise a year ago that I would fight for my life, and I truly have. I have balance, clarity, and ambition, which were struggles from age 23-27.

It's a great feeling to be assured in ones skin. No matter what struggles lie ahead, I'm pretty content with the with person that I am, even though I may cringe at the things that I've done.

29 ain't bad. I have no trouble getting out of bed. There's no need to panic.

Mom. Best Friend.

June 13, 2011

Dear Christina,

Your turning 29 is very special to me because at age 29 I was a new mother with you. Lately I've been thinking a lot about that year and how wonderful it was to have all that time with you. Although I really didn't know what I was doing, you had tremendous patience for me.

You were never cranky or whining. You were always smart, loving, and good natured.

I wish someone had told me that first week that you were born, when everyone was asleep except you and me that my baby would grow up to be a beautiful, accomplished woman. I would have forgotten how tired and sleep deprived I was, and I would have resisted the urge to yank your sleeping father out of bed.

You once told me that you thought of me as your best friend. That is the highest compliment anyone has said to me as a mother, and I hope that you will always think of me in that way.

Happy Birthday, Christina, I love you.

Mom

Beyoncé 1+1 Rehearsal Acapella Jay-Z Recorded of Be Backstage at American Idol

I've been posting a lot of videos lately.

My cousin posted this video the other day, and it made me teary. All my life I've believed in true love. We all do right?

There's nothing like a singing black girl that gets to my heartstrings!

Bey why you gotta make me cry?

Jonte Moaning

I ran into a picture of Mr. Moaning on an urban website and they were trying to clown him.

I mean, I did look at the picture, and noticed his white ass eyebrows, but whatever it's Japan.

Hailed as the Lady Gaga of Japan and the go to choreographer for Beyonce, I figured this dude is probably tight.

Once I googled his videos and his dance performances, I was like, Lady Gaga AIN'T SHIT compared to JONTE!

She needs to stop with that Judas silliness, biting off Madonna, and preaching about being Avant Garde, because I'm gonna say it..... she stole her swag from Jonte.

I'm not kidding. I swear to God. This guy can dance and sing circles around Lady Gaga. I have a feeling this guy has been the back bone of so many pop stars and is ready to blow them away.

He refers to himself as an androgynous man, while others have labeled a drag queen. America being its own hater bubble at times, may not be ready for him, but I'M READY! When I watch pop music, I'm drowning in a bunch of boring, and Jonte is a breath of fresh air. It's naughty, sassy, and dangerous. Love him.

Choreo, Swag, SICK!

Bitch, sit down!


I ain't playing with these hoes! Thought you knew but now, ya know!

Frank Ocean: Strawberry Swing

For my final project we have to write about a moment when everything changed. It's a moment that is clear and we were never the same afterwards. It's due on Wednesday, and I've been doing everything that I can to avoid writing it. I've been crying all day, because I don't want to start it.

It's been a ritual for me to throw a tantrum during the week before my birthday. This year is no different. I'm still in the midst of confronting things about myself.

I'm very content with what's going on right now, more so than I've ever been in my life. So there really isn't anything to cry about, really. There's just been so much change. There's some part of me that is fighting to catch up.

Wu Tang Clan "C.R.E.A.M."

I need to fire my financial advisor. Wait a second. I'm the financial advisor and the secretary. AGH!

Robyn 'Call Your Girlfriend' Official Video (HQ)

She seriously makes the best girl music on earth. This Video is on hit. LAV her!

I Found My Red Lipstick

I've always shied away from red lipstick because it made me look more Chinadoll and not Gwen Stefani. I've always envied those girls who can just put on nothing but red lipstick and walk around like some chic Parisian in the Spring. I also love retro looks so I've been trying to find the right shade that fit my skin tone and my face shape.

After much trial and error I think I've found my match. Lipstick: Rouge Artist Intense from Makeup Forever and MAC's LipGelee in Lush and Bright. The Lipgelee Lush and Bright is discontinued for the moment, but any of the Lipgelees with a bright, glittery, and shiny pink should fine. I like this gloss because it's thick and rich and it makes the pout look extra luscious!

I asked my male/straight roommate, "So what do you think of the red lipstick? Does it work?"

"It's very.......red."

-_-

Later that night. Tinna says to my roommate, "Why don't you just compliment her red lipstick!

LOL.

Here's to the Chinadoll! Yay Red!

Writing is Rewriting

I'm currently working on three rewrites right now. It's the part of writing I hate, because it's a lot of fixing. I'm usually horrible at editing, sentence structure, and tenses. I was really excited writing these pieces, now I'm nauseated from looking at them over and over again.

I'm trying to start my days earlier instead of ending them later. I'm at my most efficient when I've had my first cup of coffee, and not when I'm smoking my first bowl.

I also had this weird odd job this week, that required a lot of manual labor. A British classmate of mine, said that I "Didn't look like the type that did manual labor." I laughed, because I didn't know if that was a compliment, or if I truly just look like a lazy ass. Whatever the case, I was dead tired in class last night, and the fatigue is carrying over into the weekend.

I'm using my left over brain space to figure out how I can continue to create this balance of work and writing. It's where I'm at my happiest. I really grateful.

Welcome June. I love it when you are here.

Same Lipstick

Bootch Minaj and Tinna from Beauty Synergy. Our lipstick is Girl about Town from MAC